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Saturday, October 27, 2012

Heartache


I have been trying to write this blog for a week now and I just can't find the words to say.  There are so many things that I need to blog about and catch up on, but all that got put on hold Friday afternoon.  I can't even begin to describe the heartache being felt by my friends and their families right now.

Elijah Thomas Colopy 6/25/2012 - 10/19/2012

It all started on Friday morning.  My friends and I were planning on going to New Orleans for a girls weekend.   One of my best friends texted us and said that she probably wouldn't be able to go on the trip anymore because she was pregnant and was experiencing a lot of bleeding so she needed to see the doctor right away. On Friday afternoon I was packing and getting ready to leave, and I got a call from my friend saying that the doctor did confirm that she had a miscarriage.  Then she told me that our other friend Michelle that was going on the trip, called and said that they found her almost 4 month old baby not breathing and that he had passed away.  It all seemed so unreal and unimaginable.  My heart was breaking for both of them.  I talked with our other friend who was going on the trip with us and we both decided there was no way that we could still go and needed to stay home and be there for them.  I felt bad for our friend Jenia that we all cancelled going on the trip for her bachelorette party, but she completely understood.



The next few days we went over to Michelle's house and tried to be there for her and do things as much as we could.  It's so hard because you don't know what to do or say.  The thing is there is nothing you really can do.  There are no magic words or actions that will make any of it better.  I was sick to my stomach seeing the heartache on her face and all of the pain that she was in.  Nobody understands why these things happen and we probably never will.  The thing we do know is that God is still good and that Elijah and Adyn are in heaven with Him.   

The day of the funeral was one of the worst days of my life.  I will never get the images from that day out of my head.  Nobody should ever have to bury their child.  After the graveside, Holly and I got back in her car and I had a message on my phone that my great aunt passed away.  She lived a long, full life unlike this precious baby, but it's still sad and she will be missed by all of her family.  I'm heading to Oklahoma tomorrow for her funeral on Monday.  

Please keep all of these families in your prayers!

Love you Michelle and Eli!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Surgery is Over


Thanks so much for all your thoughts, prayers and sweet comments yesterday!

I'm out of surgery and I'm recovering in the hospital. Things didn't go quite as planned but it's over and I'm doing good! They had planned to do it laparoscopically, but after they got it there, they realized that the fibroids were too big and they would have to open me up to get 1 of them out. Originally we thought it was the size of an avocado but found out it was actually the size of a cantaloupe!

I'm so glad to have those things out of me! The doctor said they were outside of the uterus so they didn't have to cut into it and I shouldn't have any problems getting pregnant or having babies.

The recovery will be a little longer since they had to do an open myomectomy and I have to stay in the hospital 2 nights instead of 1. But all in all things went well and I'm happy that is over with!

Thanks again!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Surgery Tomorrow


Tomorrow morning at 7:30am, I am going in for surgery to remove my fibroids.  The surgery is being done by the Da Vinci robotic system as shown above.  It should be a pretty simple procedure and I will just have to stay in the hospital for one night.  I'm a little nervous about it, but really just looking forward to be done with it and back to feeling better.

If you think about it, please say a prayer for me.  Thanks!

BTW, Chicago was so much fun!  I'll post all about that soon.